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How do you remember someone you barely know?

First, try to gather whatever memories you have of him, regardless of how brief or how faded they may seem. These may include the last meal you had together, even if you can barely remember how lovely the smile on his face was. Sure, even if you can no longer remember his face. You may also include the last song he sang along to, perhaps while you were on your last trip together. Can’t remember how is voice sounded like? It’s fine. Make do with what you have. When in doubt, think about the last conversation you had. Specifics not required; a broad idea of what your topic was will do, since yes, you have to make do with what you have. Then, spin these memories in countless ways possible. Use your imagination; the possibilities are endless. Inside your head, re-imagine these fragments. You may even choose your own adventure. Last meal? Maybe he was having fried chicken that time. Yes, right! Because according to your mother, they had plenty of fried chicken when they …

Back to School ‘Feels’

Tomorrow begins another school year for many students in the Philippines. The other day, I went to a nearby book store and saw a couple of students shopping for school supplies parents and friends. Having seen such a scene, I could not help but reminisce the good old days. School was the most important thing to me as kid, perhaps because I was always number one in class. No wonder, first day of school really mattered to me. Since I was really competitive, I saw it as an opportunity to make really good impressions and let my teachers and classmates know how serious I was with academics. Of course, school supplies also meant a lot to me. They some of the most essential tools I needed as I aimed for excellence. My parents knew this so well, especially my father. Despite his busy schedule, he would always find time to accompany me to the mall to do some shopping. He was also aware of how picky I was. I wanted nice-looking notebooks made from quality paper, …

Being Joyful and Giving Others the Gift of Joy

I ran away from home three days before the Christmas of 2013. Things were already getting worse then and even the holidays weren’t enough reason for me to stay any longer. While hurriedly carrying my stuff out of the house, I could not help but worry about spending Christmas alone for the very first time in my life. The idea killed me deep inside, since I had always looked forward to spending those special days with my family. But that didn’t happen, thanks to the amazing people who just wouldn’t allow me to spend the holidays drowning in tears. They made sure that I would still feel loved and happy even though I wasn’t with my family and I am forever thankful for their kindness. Such a situation taught me to be sensitive during the holiday season. Here in the Philippines, Christmas celebrations are usually about the family. People are expected to come home and spend time with their families. In fact, many post greetings like, “Merry Christmas to my family to yours.” How about those who can’t …

Oh, Frustrations

The semester is ending soon and here I am, still clueless on how to catch up with all the unread book chapters and unwritten academic papers. Anyone who has known me for a long time would probably think that it’s so not me, for I have always been a diligent student. I never missed a deadline as an undergrad; my friends lauded my willpower to finish school requirements (even with flying colors), despite the fact that I had to juggle studies with multiple part-time jobs. So what has been happening these days? Is the old me gone? Is my job security and the promise that I’ll get to eat and pay the bills no matter how I suck at school making me feel somehow complacent, to the point that grad school no longer seem to matter a lot? Am I unafraid to fuck up this time because life has been okay and it will be even without a master’s degree? Maybe yes and maybe no. Maybe yes, because unlike before, I no longer feel the fear of starving to …